At one time, I had a lot of friends. It seemed I was never at a loss when I needed to talk to someone. Lately, though, it feels like everyone has abandoned ship. Did I miss something? Or the bigger question, did I DO something?
Perhaps it is truly my fault. I haven't been at my best for the past few months. When things get bad, I tend to isolate myself. Maybe I've pushed people away. But aren't your best friends always supposed to be there? I have certainly been there for everyone else whenever they needed me. Ohana means nobody gets left behind, right?
Honestly, I feel like such a wimp for whining. Thank GOD no one actually reads this mindless drivel. I just needed an outlet. I whine and complain and then ignore it all. Probably, that's not the best way to handle things. It's certainly not improving my mental state. But, then, given my current position, maybe it's best to be alone.
It's fine, I have my kids and I have school. I will fully immerse myself in those 2 things and by doing so, will be far too busy to notice the lack of friendly faces in my world.
I still have to wonder though.......
